Monday, April 6

First day out

From this...
To this... Ok, so my last day was technically last week, but I was planning on taking off the weekend anyway (for the Beaver Freezer) so I didn't count it.

Today might have been the longest day of my life. By 9:00 I had already cleaned 2 potty messes, showered and gotten ready for the day, fed/dressed (2 times) LM, and called my mom. At 10 I retreated to the bedroom to lay down because I was so exhausted with the day. Thankfully a good friend called just then, and it helped spruce me back up. But by 11 I was back to the bed wondering what the heck I was thinking and how does anyone actually do this stay-at-home thing? By 12 I had the diaper back on LM and decided we needed to get outside. We had a wonderful beautiful walk to the eye drs to get my new glasses. When we got back I looked at the clock and it was barely 1. I felt like I was in a time warp! At work there was never enough time in the day, what the heck happened? Lunch killed some time, and then nap for LM. This is when I did my cleaning (more to come on that). LM ended up sleeping for the rest of the afternoon, and I just cleaned. The one thought I just can't get out of my mind is I'm doing this again tomorrow. Am I a drama queen or what? What is actually so devastatingly hard about not having to go to work and instead spending time with the world's cutest 3 year old? (I definitely don't have that answer)

Of course Oprah today was all about the secret life of moms. The show was good, but I ended up getting a little turned off (long story). Either way I couldn't help but think how the timing was just right for my first day home. However, I never thought this would be easy. I really didn't have any illusions. I just assumed I was crazy for actually wanting to do it.

6 comments:

Trish said...

It gets better I promise. It's all about the routine. I'm going to be doing the same thing in a few weeks. I always had to get out of the house in the morning and then I was ready to be home in the afternoon. It definitely is a switch! Lisa found great comfort in going to the gym in the mornings so she had a place to go for her that helped her feel better as well as take up some time during the day. I'm sure I'll be posting shortly the same things!!

adventure knitter said...

Oh Becca it'll get easier! It's funny cuz I'm laughing at you from over here. I just keep thinking "ah, to just have one kid", but then again, I know how complicated life was with just one! Keep at it! And find a good routine for you and that little man! You're a great mom! (and when you're done "deep cleaning" want to come over to my house?? your little one can come play with mine!)

alicia said...

Like Trish, I like to go to the gym in the morning. Rowan loves the outing to the childcare and I like working out. It is also a fun way to interact with some adults. Another key thing is to hang out with other moms and their kids. Playgroup is on Wednesday at 9:30 am.

Prestwich Family said...

Thanks for being honest. I sure enjoy it when I hear other moms have a hard sometimes too. And I watch Oprah too and wasn't crazy about the show. I want to know what turned you off even if it is a long story!

Sarah said...

wow, Bec! I'm glad you get to learn the ropes so you can show me all the tricks by the time I have kids. I was talking to Martha at Grandma's the other day, and she said the same thing about having a schedule--activity day, shopping day, etc.-- to get you out of the house every day. I have to say, though, that picture of Will is sure cute-- better than the supermodels any day.

becca said...

Kendell-I will have to tell you that story in person. I don't want to bash people on my blog!